Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Romance

My "love horoscope" for today (don't ask how I even get these) Dear Sarah, Here is your love horoscope for Wednesday, September 3:
How unrealistic are your goals when it comes to love? Do you think your lover will be a drop-dead gorgeous genius with the patience of a monk and the passion of a tango instructor, or are you cool with just dating a mere human? Time to reassess reality. Hmmm. Well, It's funny, because Venezuela really had my wheels spinning. He wasn't a monk but a former who used to be really good, like, number 1. Only now he and apparently also only never in front of me, because he was really very much a and when he asked me if I was a smoker I kind of made a grimace, or said "not really." I'm mean, I'm not, really. If it's there - on the rare occasion (sorry Aunt Debbie) but I am by no means a even abit of a stoner. He also did wierd things like go to the Which I guess isn't that wierd because soooo many people go only everyone that goes is sort of At first, I really wanted him to come to my apartment, and then when I went to his Aunt's, where he was staying and La Senora (the maid) came
in to ask him a question, I realised, when I came home later on that not even the maid would live in my building - or, rather, it's where all the maids live only not his maid, she wouldn't live here. My friend Lia, who's here from France said "Why do you let that bother you? He is very relaxed and not at all arrogant - you can't tell that he has that kind of background." I had a dream one night and when I woke up I said " I was dreaming about your Grandma, that she was this really conservative Lady, and I was trying to convince her that I was a good person, that I prayed, and I was praying for her." And he said - "My Grandmother is like this -very traditional and very conservative." It could be that he was wearing this that infused into my dream. Something about all of these details both attracts and repels me. I am a little uneasy about the obvious upper class family, and yet attracted to the love and seeming stability that is emeshed in the Latin tradition. It is such a flip for me to have someone call me the baby or take care of me since I always picture myself as the one who will care take and comb hair and fold laundry. I guess it's my sort of bossy, leadership nature. It feels so good to have someone turn that table on me and say hey wo, I'm the Man, I'm going to take care of it. It's both shocking and settling at the same time. Is that unrealistic of me? To imagine that it's possible to have and be worthy of all these things? Of course not! I am totally going to have a traditional Latin, Candian, Irish, French Family and be the best Mom and Wife and Friend ever, only my kids WILL NOT have canopies on their beds (unless
they really really want them) and they will learn how to surf and snowboard when they're 2. That's what I imagine, only I literally need to slow down, relax and let it all happen. I'm just NOT dating that Homo-Sapien at the top. No matter what my "Love Horoscope" says.

2 comments:

Aunt Debbi/kurts mom said...

Not sure if I am "the" aunt debbie, but, if so, don't sweat it. Been there, done that.

I have pictures of the monkeys learning to ski when they were 3

Sarah Tone In said...

cute! I learned how to ski when
I was 2 and a half..the greatest!

And yes you are THE aunt debbi.

:)